Monday, November 18, 2013

Theory of Knowledge - Materialism and Magi

The Father - No, no! That wasn't my meaning! In fact, I should like to request you to abandon this game of art which you are accustomed to play here with your actors, and to ask you seriously once again: who are you?
The Director - If this fellow here hasn't got a nerve! A man who calls himself a character comes and asks me who I am!
The Father - A character, sir, may always ask a man who he is. Because a character has really a life of his own, marked with his special characteristics; for which reason he is always "somebody." But a man -- I'm not speaking of you now -- may very well be ''nobody.'' 

Six Characters in Search of an Author, Luigi Pirandello 

Over the last few days I have seen a certain type of materialism exposed in a number of the esoteric practitioners that I communicate with, in their blogs and in their various internet forums.  It confuses me that magi would believe in high school ''matter''.

I must admit it puzzles me when I see esoteric practitioners saying something like ''I am a talking monkey'' rather than say (if you're going to be ''materialistic'') ''I am a reincarnating information spiral''.  Both are equally true from a materialistic perspective.  But the way the materialism exposes itself is revealing.

Who are you?

I believe the experience of being ''human'' is threefold - consisting of a ''material'' component, a ''psychological'' component and a ''spiritual'' component but with consciousness identifying with one aspect or another at various times.

The ''material'' component is not a talking monkey that you happen to be riding in.  It is not an ''object'' or a ''subject'' but combines the two.  Your material life is an information (Knowledge) wave, constantly changing and constantly renewing itself.


My psychological experience, the idea of being and having a personality is again different and after one dies, the Ruakh, or the transcendental ego does typically have other stuff to do.  It goes into a world of its own creation, based on the way it dealt with the experiences it had in ''life''.  This process can seem to last a very long time from the perspective of the Ruakh, but all time is subjective, 5 mins can last 5 hours if its agonizing enough.  Through stoicism one can limit the pain of this experience.


My spiritual experience, is the voice of my higher self which occasionally speaks through me.  This higher self is around me all the time.  I am indeed suspended in my higher (deeper) self, which is ''supposedly'' suspended in a ''material'' world.


As I go through the day I might identify with one aspect more than another.  If I bang my knee into a table, I may identify with the ''talking monkey/reincarnating information spiral'' aspect more.  If somebody says something nice or mean, maybe I'll identify with the personality/ego aspect more.  If I meditate on eternal consciousness in all things, I will identify with the spiritual aspect.

You are then what you identify with.  I believe that when rectified to a great extent one effectively becomes ones own Angel, one becomes an Angel in the Flesh.  It is not that this Angel somehow rides you rather that you become it, like a caterpillar turns into a butterfly. Not everyone reaches that state, and obviously stoicism is the only way to hold the Ruakh fast enough to allow the Neschamah to bloom within you (bearing in mind again that it surrounds you and you are immersed in it at all times).

What is Matter?

Matter is not atomic lego.  It is a probability pattern which arises from and disperses itself into nothingness whilst simultaneously time-travelling and co-locating.  Matter is completely intertwined with some kind of observational principle.  To suggest that mind and matter are different seems illogical, but that doesn't mean I am a materialist, rather that I believe in pan-pscyhism i.e. that matter is mind rather than mind being matter.  We need to come up with or rather restore a term for the universal substrate which does not have the connotations now associated with the word matter.

How do we see the invisible?

*All* of our experience is mental. We never directly perceive the physical world.  Ever.  You are constantly bathed in your own consciousness, awake or asleep.  All sounds are mental sounds, all sights are mental sights.  Once you accept this the spirits can communicate with you whenever you wish them to or they wish to.  The delusion of being divorced from reality, of looking out through your eyes at physical reality is what cuts you off.  Once one accepts one's experience is fundamentally mental, your consciousness is vivified and becomes numinous.  Your higher self has way more information than it feels you can handle without going insane.  By steeling oneself, one is demonstrating to the Higher Self, that one can handle more than one is currently handling.  Any knee bashes or reactions to petty words only sends the message that you are not ready.  The more steeled* one is the more that Angel will live within you and the more telepathic, prophetic and subsequently compassionate one will become.

*Being stoic does not mean being dispassionate.  Again, when stoicism is achieved then genuine compassion (Rachamim) will blossom in one's heart.  Only through stoicism can one see the beauty in all things.  Rachamim synthesises the two opposites of Love (Chesed) and Fear (Gevurah).  Only by withdrawing ones consciousness from external sources of Love and Fear can one realise that, again, these phenomena arise within the Soul.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Earth Altar - 231 Gates, Ispaklariot and Unification

The 231 Gates
''All other prophets looked through nine ispaklariot where Moses looked through only one.'' or ''All other prophets looked through a dull Ispaklaria, while Moses saw through a clear Ispaklaria'' - Talmud and Midrash

  • Ispaklariot are considered to be 'lenses' or 'mirrors' in these passages from the Talmud and Midrash

When conducting a study of the Sefer Yetzirah each of the letters (elements, planets, zodiac signs) was considered* in turn and it seemed that when one worked with Alef then one would experience Alef. Perhaps this Alef would ''materialize'' as actual wind blowing, or a scent on the breeze, or the sudden appearance of a flock of birds overhead.  The idea was formed then that by considering* the letters one was effectively summoning their physical manifestations**.

The alternate idea was rooted in the idea of the Ispaklariot.  Perhaps instead of summoning something new, one was actually obsessing so much over the letter that one was blocking everything else out of perception - i.e. the work with Alef placed an Alef ''filter'' over the senses so only Alef got through.  The letters are all active around us, all the time, though perhaps in greater and lesser concentrations and what we think of as summoning is really observing.  This may be true.  The evidence that the consideration* of a letter causes the manifestation of the letter is equally compelling though and I have attempted to synthesise these ideas throughout the last few years and have indeed commented on this theory before in the blogos.

Pre-initiation folk are essentially bathed in these letters but are not aware of them, or indeed how exactly they blend***'at any given time.  By systematically approaching* each letter we effectively filter out the others and can see only that letter and therefore gain a deeper understanding of it.

If we take this lense theory further then once each letter has been considered, the letters can be put back together into one lense and whilst the pre-initiation folk see effectively nothing of reality, the initiated mind sees it all.

Form substance out of chaos and make nonexistence into existence. Carve great pillars out of air that cannot be grasped. This is the sign: One forsees, transposes, and makes all creation and all words with one Name. And a sign of this: Twenty-two objects in a single body. - Sefer Yetzirah 2:6

As I suggested in the Earth Altar post these 22 objects in a single body are the 22 ''letters'' in the Earth (Aretz).  The principle behind the 231 gates project will be to build 22 ''shrines'' or focal channels for the letters - charge each in material, intermediate and noetic sunthemata**** and then link them together using the 231 gates.  Since this project will take place in the Tower I am assuming something interesting will happen.

From the earlier work it certainly felt that when the letters and their accompanying kingships were being worked that some kind of calibration or tuning of the Soul took place.  For example when working on the Kingship of ''Hearing'' the act of meditating on ''Hearing/Listening" really brought that sense into sharp relief and increased its focus - not that I heard more, but that I heard more fully that which I heard*****.  Considerations of other non-sensory Kingships like ''Anger'' or ''Laughter''' were equally revealing.

The section on 231 gates in Kaplan's SY indicates that this process may have been used to make a golem.  Now what exactly does that mean?  A golem is a clay object brought to life by Ruakh and the letters.  In this way Adam seems to me ''God's****** Golem''.  Since I am a son of Adam I am a Golem too. But one has to ask if your Golem, the Golem that you are is not calibrated are you getting the most out of it?

When I completed the original SY study one of the conclusions was the Saadia Tree of Life I have mentioned before, a diagram which harmonised what I had learned from the study and seemed to me something of a Golem of my own and this Golem seemed to grant great ''power'' - it was a 'sword' that magnified all those swordly******* powers.   But what about this new work?

These 22 Autiot (letters) Yassod (fastened)
(which are the foundation of all things),
Belgalgal (to a turning wheel)
(He arranged upon a sphere)
(on a sphere like a wall with) (like a wheel on a wall)(set them in a wheel, like a kind of wall)by 231 (with 231 gates) - Sefer Yetzirah

Kelley and Loew, Angels and Golems.  Hmmm.

*Contemplated, evoked, invoked, weighed, permuted, probed with, probed from.
****Gregory Shaw ''Theurgy and the Soul.''
*****Just meditating in silence for a bit and then focusing on what you can actually hear can be pretty startling in itself - but think how many pre-initiates wander around hearing nothing but the noise in their own head?
*******Yes swordly - as in Zeir Anpin with pommel in Daath, blade in Malkuth, ExKaliburate yourself, etc.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Earth Altar - 231 Gates

I retrieved a bunch of magical equipment from my other appartment for the commencement of my 231 Gates of Intelligence project in Kelley's Tower.  After a bit of an audit I figured out that my components indicated an Earth altar would be most appropriate.  The room where I built this Earth Altar I eventually want to dedicate to the 7 planets and I appreciate that Earth is not one of them.  More on this later.

My finished altar is a brown wooden bookcase with a small desk attached to the front of it.  The books are sorted into categories according to the ''land'' of their origin and the bookends are stones from the courtyard on two of the shelves.  The third and topmost shelf is occupied by crystals lit by candles.  On top of the altar are my dual spiral candle holders which simulate DNA, Buddha, the Raven of Enlil as ''Adonai ha Aretz'', a plant and a globe*.


It is interesting to me that I now have an Earth Altar as it reminds me of something in the Sefer Yetzirah study which I had quite forgotten but which is, I think, useful to point out now.  As most of you are aware the Earth is not considered one of the 7 sacred planets.  Nor is Earth an element in the system of the Sefer Yetzirah (there being only Air, Water and Fire).  During the study, in fact at the beginning of the work we did on the Kingships, we studied the word Aretz.  It was perculiar in that it is not part of the 231 gates (the 22 letters joined to each other).  It appears in the text at ''with Fire create the Heavens, with Water create the Earth, and with Air (Atmosphere) decide between them''**.
My research on this word and the other word Dam (DM) provided insights as to why ''Earth'' is not included.  Earth is not an element (or elementary) it is a compound (or derivative).  Similarly Earth is not a sacred planet but it is where all of the influences of the planets meet and join - again a compound.  Earth (Aretz) is the meeting place of the 22 letters, it is the domain of the 231 gates and their interplay.

The word ''Aretz'' here rightly means ''Land'' which of course has political and geographical connotations as well as being associated with the soil which is of course more appropriately associated with the word Dam.  The word DM is Dalet (Mars - Kingship Seed/Desolation) and Mem (Water), in the Torah it is called the red earth (again witness the correctness of the Saadia associations in linking Mars with the red earth) which indicates that it is rich in iron oxide***.  Indeed Adam or ADM (the addition of the Alef to the DM),  to me suggests the oxygenated soil, the life-breath connected with the iron, or oxyhaemoglobin - the Blood is the Life.  The idea of turning the soil, an process often performed by the ox, not only mixes important gases and lets the earth breathe, but also to my mind indicates the nature of space time in its furrows - the Earth then, or the World, is also the Universe in the sense of the word ''Olam''.

Aretz is a slightly different word - Alef, Resh, Tzaddi - Air, Mercury - Kingship Peace/War, Aquarius, evocative more of the ''Game of Thrones'' aspect of Kingdom management perhaps and the water cycle.  For one to manage the land, one must understand the atmosphere and the winds - be there faire or foule - Enlil is ''Lord of the Wind'' and the word means Kingship - that Mercury in the middle indicates the Logos properties of Enlil but also speaks to me of the importance of diplomacy.  Aquarius, as the stately progression of the clouds, and their cargo of rain is also hugely important in successful kingdom management and the lightning also ensures the fertility of the soil. Also the Saturnian yet humanitarian angle on Aquarius is also important in looking after one's subjects in other ways.


This all said, the Earth Altar will remain then in the Tower but as the central point of focus of the other 22 objects, not as an element, planet or sign in particular, but as a concertation of all the 22 celestial forces.

*This globe is a plastic affair from the 80s showing the USSR.  I have acquired a more ''esoteric'' globe which is a 16th century map of the Earth with a starmap on the inside. I am picking it up later this week.

**Aysh nivroo shamayeem, mayim nivroo aretz ve ruakh makraya bayntayeem.

***See earlier post on this - QBListic extension.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Metabolism VIII - Stoicism and Unification

Why is stoicism so important to me in my practice of QBL?

The only practice that has been used in my own unification of the dimensions, my genetics and consciousness is Stoicism (or various Eastern approaches to a very similar subject).  As discussed previously (in the sections on Strategic Drama - Control) there are two apparent worlds which one has to contend with on a daily basis in order to maintain mindfulness of ones own consciousness - the ''internal'' world of thoughts, and the ''external'' world of phenomena (which includes a great deal of social interaction).  These two worlds cause distractions that lead one away from consciousness, the first various thoughts (selfishness, fear, desire) and the second social transactions  (criticism/abuse/praise) and into the ''fallen'' delusional state of Malkuth where one considers oneself to be a physical object looking through its eyes at other physical objects, rather than the ''rectified'' state of being a mental object experiencing mental objects within an awareness of your own larger consciousness. This Inner Light is the true reality and you are in it right now.  You are always in the Inner Light.

This internal world of thoughts relates to the DNA within the nucleus, the external world to the cytoplasm which surrounds it.  Actions within that internal world in response to phenomena in the external world can be clearly likened to the way in which DNA, when stimulated by a change in the chemical environment of the cytoplasm, unwinds and reveals information which become proteins.

DNA within Nucleus
Nucleus within Cytoplasm

Stoicism, to me, always implies a return to the ''place''.  When a social transaction causes you to get angry or jealous or afraid that emotion is being produced by *you* not by the words themselves.  If one believes it is the words that are producing the emotional experience then one is as deluded as someone who thinks they look ''through'' their eyes or that they directly experience physical light.  For the will to be trained one must be one's own judge in these matters.  Similarly a social transaction which takes the form of praise or compliments is as likely to induce delusion as the negative.  Those who cannot be their own judge will experience life as a rollercoaster of ups and downs, pulled this way and that way by other people who are equally deluded*.

The Cell Membrane

This ''division'' between an external and internal world is also a delusional state - its useful for discussing technicalities but must be discarded.  Both of these worlds are contained within the larger sphere of one's consciousness.  This is a fact.  The events that occur within the phenomenal ''external'' world are directly related to the thoughts of the internal world and vice versa. 

The devil is of course in the details.  Its nice to learn heart-warming tropes about universal consciousness but if you want to practice *medicine*, either on yourself through tikkun, or on others through tikkun, or ideally both simultaneously you will need to knuckle down and learn the ''details''.  The details of the system are not easy to master but in order to get the most out of the methods outlined in this blogos one must not only get their philosophical position and their personal practice in order,  but also learn the ins and outs of the ''QBListic physiognomy'' for only then will you be able to truly penetrate to the heart of the ''messages'' you are '''receiving''.

''Bridle your mouth from speaking and your heart from thinking. And if your heart runs, return to the place.'' SY 1:8 Gra Version

This ''place'' is the consciousness we have been describing and your awareness of it (at all times) - the mouth speaking, and the heart thinking show how one ''falls''.  This place, when experienced, is the unification, both in the sense of Achad (unity) and Yechad (singularity).  The physical, spatial and observational dimensions that you exist as the centre of extend to infinity in all directions, you are the point at infinity and it is you that loses sight of that because you have not become Stoic.  It is not easy to live in this place.  It is a completely different environment to the ''fallen'' delusional state and one must get used to it.  Run and Return, Run and Return.  But Return**.

*The sad thing from a physicalist point of view is that this tossing and turning, these emotional upheavals lead to a surge in cortisol levels, a drop in the efficacy of the immune system and therefore physical sickness.  I see people making themselves angry, afraid and then sick all the time.  In this sense Stoicism at the very least is preventative medicine.

**Return, Teshuvah was an alternate name for Binah in the Early Kabbalah.